A Finals, Swim Banquet, High School Swimming

finals was good i guess i mean i got best times and I got $50 from my mom! i had fun and I did well. I am really glad for those of you that cheered for me and that came to support me because I am like feeling really alone right now. I have been wanting to go out with someone and I haven't been able to find the right person... but I dont know if I did because I have a little crush on this guy and no one knows who he is! and no one is going to know who he is! so I am going to say no more (about that).

Tonight is the banquet and I am looking forward to seeing the movie! it is going to be really good! or so I have heard. I have also heard that there might be something going on at the Gerfen's house after. PARTY! yea I wish! I mean I am going to have a really good time no matter what because I am going to make myself have fun! I just dont wanna cry or anything at the movie because it is going to be really sad that it is the end of the summer swim season already! =( I am soooo sad about that. I mean it seems that it started like yesterday or soemthing like that! I hate the end of things because it is soo sad! I am about to cry right now just thinking about the end of the season. But... there is 3 weeks where I am not going to be swimming. I mean I am going to be on the high school team! so that is going to be really fun!

I am really excited for the high school swim season to start! I am like over welmed with joy for that. I hope it is going to be as good as I think it is going to be..

My mom is being a total b***h because she is saying that I might not be ab;e to switch over to BBD and I might have to sdtay on YPAC! But I really wanna go to BBD because a lot of people that I know are going to BBD and not going to YPAC next year. =( that is sad too because I dont wanna be the only person that is going to move to BBD and I don't wanna be like the only person that stays on YPAC! it is such a confusing thing. I mean i dunno I guess I wanna stay with the group os friends that i have at swimming but if they split up then it is going to be hard to know what team I am going to go on. I really wanna go to BBD but I also wanna go to YPAC. I am really confused right now. I just wanna be with people that I know and that I like.

please comment!

**Rachel